Liverpool FC Forum

Good morning everyone Drummerphil here, not totally in sound mind,but neverless here.Its been a very difficult time these last 6-12 weeks,since I came out of hospital.Medically things have gradually got worse and the weakness and constant pain i’m in is far and above anything I;ve experienced ever before.I have 3 areas of pain in my brain which never go and I’m living on very strong doses of morphine among 46 other tablets I take daily.The last 3 weeks have been the worse, I’ve collapsed 3 times because my legs have lost all strength when I’ve tried to stand up and my speech and eye sight are shocking.Karen and I get married in 3 weeks time ,we are getting married with me in bed here,the vicar,the cancer/palative nurse and two witnesses.Thats it…. no family,friends  because mentally I couldn’t take it.
Emotionally I’ve had it and spend most nights lying here, crying either in pain,thinking about Karen and the kids or both.I was given 6-12 months in April if you remember and if you look at things officially from that 4 months has already gone.I am fighting as much as I can do but by god I cant do anymore than what I’m doing.Scared,frightened and a total mental wreck is what I’ve become.Please bear with me when I can get on here my concentration levels are nil,eyesight is and I’m trying my best.It was quite frightening on Tuesday when I overheard the cancer nurse telling Karen even though we get married in 3 weeks,maybe we should bring it forward abit,because how she saw me then I’ve got much worse and might not make it………….3 WEEKS…..Now that is frightening.I have felt a bit better today but still very ill and it will still be 3 weeks and nothing will stop that.I will carry on doing everything possible to beat this but by god my dear friends its so hard and a battle I would wish on none of you.Its taken me since 7am this morning to write this,but I know one or two of you guys have been asking for updates.
As for Liverpool not seen a lot because of obvious reasons,and when I have, what can I say apart from very disappointed .I know we have played a lot of young players and players new to the set up etc etc…….but no LIVERPOOL TEAM should ever be losing 5 nil to teams of that quality,especially with us having a CL Game coming and the charity shield coming.We have a better all round squad,a more offensive and pacey attack and it bothers me that players like Traore and Diao  are anywhere near the UK let alone still at Liverpool.I sure Rafa will sort it out he has too and soon,was I the only one when Rafa said he had bought a hobb last year it was a new cooker for his kitchen,because he certainly aint a footballer.
Any goodbye from me until I’m able again.I’m in such a state right now I cant really see anyone I,ve even told family to keep away and because of my speech there is no point and I’m highly embaressed by it.Anyone is quite free to email Karen (mrsdrummerphil) or ask jmac for her number.

bigmick wrote:I'm not religious at all mate but I'm going to close my eyes tonight and pray for you and karen before I go to sleep. Everyone on the forum loves you fella, keep on keeping on.