Dundreamin is back » Sat Apr 04, 2015 10:37 pm wrote:I expect to get the wrath of plenty posters on here over this, but frankly I don't care.I am 54 and have been a Red for ever since I can remember. My first visit to Anfield I think I was about 6. Now this is not about just this season it goes back about 25 years but looking back I think our demise began after King Kenny resigned after that 4-4 v the Blues***e. There's no way i am blaming Kenny for this as we all know why he left. But over the last quarter of a century we have seen too many false dawns I care to remember. Then last season about this this time I was convinced we would after all the up,s and down,s at last we were going to get the Monkey off our backs. Especially after I almost lost my life in May 2013 and even then after emerging from a two week Coma, and I cannot remember this but one of the first things I asked was how are Liverpool getting on!! Now apparently my family were told to make my funeral arrangements as I was given at the time a 10% chance of survival. And after recovering I will never work again and have had to come to terms with a lot of health issues I have to live with including Brain damage which affects my short term memory. So last season was surreal to me and when people asked me how I survived I would point to the League table and say that. So it didn't happen but I wasn't too upset as I thought we will kick on from that and be even stronger this season even with Suarez gone and also CL football to look forward to.
How wrong could I be especially being embarrassed in the CL with really got to me. Then we had the unbeaten run but I said to a few mates I think this is just papering over the cracks. I had to take a lot of stick over that and the wind up,s like "Take no notice of him he's Brain damaged" but it was done in jest. So fast forward to today and when Markovich bottled it today when we in a position to take advantage next thing we are 3-0 down which reminded me of the Mange game away in December. At half time I done something I have never done in my life before and I turned the TV off and never even looked for the result after the game had finished. So now I feel like I am losing the faith big time. I need to find some hope but I look forward to the next game and I really won't be surprised if Blackburn knock us out on Wednesday.
If they don't then Villa might and even then if we reach the Final and meet more than likely Arsenal I still cannot see a positive. I need some advice or how to change my mindset as this really isn't me. I can now understand when a Priest,for example starts to question there faith or there belief in God. So now I am thinking I need a reborn Christian when they see "The light"
Reading this post again, I reckon 'faith' could be interpreted in a lot of ways. Personally, and I know I'm not alone, I'm losing faith in football. I'll always love it and follow it, but we all know it's not the same world it is now, to what it was at its creation up until maybe twenty years ago. Probably one of the all encompassing reasons for this is that it was always the 'common mans' game. A working class game. Players and supporters easily related to one another. Support was truer once than it is now. Fans are seperate from players. We expect them to play well because they're earning stupid amounts of cash where once they played for the badge they wore. The badge we supported. Id guess that was the main common ground.
It's a completely different world now. I say 'world' because the game itself remains more or less the same, though thinking about it, that's not really true. Health and safety and political correctness have a lot to answer for. ambulance chasing lawyers and advances in health technology means you'll rarely see the likes of Terry Butcher again.
Sorry for the lack of order in my post. It made more sense in my head
